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Dec. 10th, 2014 12:08 pm
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I did an Outward Bound course when I was 29.  It was really hard.  I was reasonably unfit and hadn't spent much time on my own for a long time.

On the last day of our first 5 day hike I was almost done in.  I was feeling terrible for insisting that we stop for 5 min every 30min, but also needed it.  I had blisters and we'd been walking for about 10 hours a day.  Then the leader took my hand and I felt my body language change.  My shoulders went back and I found it much easier to keep up with the group.

I reflected on that experience for years.  I told people the story and the lesson I took from that experience.  No one contradicted me.

And then I told someone new and she interrupted before I could tell her the lesson I had taken.  She said, "you should ask for help when you need it".

I spent 5 years thinking that I should make myself less reliant on other people for my emotional well-being.  That I should cultivate an inner strength that could deal with whatever came up.  I prefer the second lesson.
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