My head will explode.

written on pda 9-3-05

I have things to do, decisions to make, questions to ask and a living to make.
All I want to do is lie here on this couch.
This morning I have decided to abandon my tent making plan.

LATER

I seem to have regained my equilibrium. l remember, now, that babies have a way of making their presence felt and the wayl am feeling, and the things I can't do are just a part of that.
I'm still worried about work, and making clothes for my children at festival, and the mess in my house that means that doing things is harder than it ought to be.
I still can't find clothes to wear to work and I won't be there until 11-3Oam
but at least I don't feel like bursting into tears.

Later again

My brain arrived about 20min ago -gee it feels good! But it sure feels bad when I'm sitting at work and I'm trying to orgonise stuff. It feels like someone took the paper bag and replaced it with toffee or golden syrup.

How do I keep working when I feel like this?