a bit of self hate
That's the title I came up with on my bike ride home as I mentally made the list of things I hate about me and what I do.
I hate that I have the attention span of a gnat and the only way I can do big projects is if I capture my initial enthusiasm and get far enough into it that I've either sucked a bunch of friends into pulling me along, or nearly finished.
I hate that I can't do that with renovating my house and that I'm perpetually coming up with a different project I want to work on "right now!"
I hate the fact that everytime I think I'm going to have the time/headspace to spend six months resolving my house renovation, I come up with another SCA project that seems like more fun - until I'm sick of it or it's finished and I realise that I haven't got a renovated house yet.
Oh well, off to lie on the couch watching dumb Friday night TV and feeding Rose to sleep.
See you in the morning when I'm feeling better.
I hate that I have the attention span of a gnat and the only way I can do big projects is if I capture my initial enthusiasm and get far enough into it that I've either sucked a bunch of friends into pulling me along, or nearly finished.
I hate that I can't do that with renovating my house and that I'm perpetually coming up with a different project I want to work on "right now!"
I hate the fact that everytime I think I'm going to have the time/headspace to spend six months resolving my house renovation, I come up with another SCA project that seems like more fun - until I'm sick of it or it's finished and I realise that I haven't got a renovated house yet.
Oh well, off to lie on the couch watching dumb Friday night TV and feeding Rose to sleep.
See you in the morning when I'm feeling better.