me and food

[mrsbrown]

I have always liked food. I have always eaten everything on my plate, particularly if I like it, and regardless of how full I feel. I have regularly made myself quite unwell cramming in dessert after a really good meal, because the dessert sounded so good, or was put in front of me. I did develop a healthy distrust of pavlova after I ate 5 pieces at a party once, they tasted good and I turned off the discomfort in my tummy for the taste in my mouth. Of course, I blame my mother for my unhealthy attitude to food and have made a point of allowing my children to leave food on their plates when they say they are full.

But now, I have to renegotiate my relationship with food.

I have to eat small amount, or I feel sick, and I have to force myself to drink water, despite feeling sick

But I'm completely obsessed with food. Today I have eaten; 3 vita wheat biscuits, a tablespoon of vanilla yoghurt, half a glass of orange juice (that was a mistake), 2 cashews and a quarter of a toasted cheese sandwich. The other 3 quarters are calling me from the kitchen because I only put the quarter I knew it was sensible to eat on the plate I brought with me to the comp. I have also managed to drink about 3 glasses of water or ginger beer cordial.

I am, in fact, not feeling too bad. I could probably go to work but I'm not sure how to manage work with doing the sort of grazing on food I need to do. And bringing food with me means that I'll be more likely to eat it and make myself sick. You can't ration it by degree of difficulty, the way I can here.

Oh well, I'm sure I'll work it out.

Comments

[doushkasmum.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a drag. Food habits are very hard to change. Stay well!

On another note, when are we bottling the beers? Are they finished yet? I am working late tonight, can manage any other night this week if you need me.

[sjkasabi.livejournal.com]

Does indeed sound like a drag. Yerk. Very different from my own food related issues (ie remembering/having the stomach to eat it when distressed or distracted or depressed, no matter how yummy I think it is), but yes, lots of empathy for how they trap you. On that note, I've decided I can just about deal with toast for tea, but that I deserve a beer after the last few days and am allowed to have one so long as I have it in virtual public by mentioning it on LJ ;-) Cheers.

Can you ration your work food by keeping it in the work tearoom? Then you have to stand up to get some every time you think it is wise to have some. That's how I ration my caffeine intake at work.

[californiaskys.livejournal.com]

I was searching through random journals and came across this one and decided to share an experience.

One time I was at my friend's birthday party and we ate at this really nice resturaunt so I felt like I had to eat all of my food. So I did. Dessert came around. I felt obligated to eat all of that also. By that time I was feeling miserable. So it's 8 I go get in bed. Not 10 min. later do I run to the bathroom and and just get it all out (through my mouth, I don't like using the word 'puke').

I go to my mirror and I was like wow, my acne got REALLY bad just now. Then I felt my face and I couldn't feel the acne. I had in fact popped all the blood vessels in my face. My grandma felt so bad for me that she didn't make me go to school the next day.

Sorry this was kind of random.