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Gee I'm tired
Nov. 18th, 2003 09:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mrsbrownI say that a lot...
Once, a long time ago, I did the Forum - an american personal development/brainwashing workshop.
I spent the first day watching all these brave people stand up and talk about all the regrets in their life. They frequently burst into tears when talking about how they loved their parents and had never told them. One guy got up and began telling us about his birth. When he'd finished, the leader (he had a special name I forget) said, and I quote it often, "You're weird" in a very american accent that became more like, ' youerr weirrd'.
At the end of the day - about 11.30pm, after an 8.30 start, the leader asked if anyone was tired or had a headache. Finally, my chance! I'm good at volunteering! I sat on a chair at the front and after assuring him of my commitment to not being tired or headachy, visualised the colours I saw when I closed my eyes. We spent 10 minutes and miraculously, my headache was cured. He asked if I was still tired - I replied, " about as tired as I usually am"
I think about that sometimes - "about as tired as I usually am" How do I stop being tired? Am I misnaming this feeling as "tired" I think I stop feeling this way for about 3 hours in the morning, or when I'm doing mathsy stuff - eng design that has well defined steps, sewing (sometimes), I haven't done comp programming for a while but that used to do it.
In some ways I think I like this feeling - I feel sort of big eyed and intellectual when I'm in its depths, and then I''ll write stuff like this that I'm sort of happy with.
Anyway, I should work out ways to avoid this tired feeling when I don't get anything done.
Once, a long time ago, I did the Forum - an american personal development/brainwashing workshop.
I spent the first day watching all these brave people stand up and talk about all the regrets in their life. They frequently burst into tears when talking about how they loved their parents and had never told them. One guy got up and began telling us about his birth. When he'd finished, the leader (he had a special name I forget) said, and I quote it often, "You're weird" in a very american accent that became more like, ' youerr weirrd'.
At the end of the day - about 11.30pm, after an 8.30 start, the leader asked if anyone was tired or had a headache. Finally, my chance! I'm good at volunteering! I sat on a chair at the front and after assuring him of my commitment to not being tired or headachy, visualised the colours I saw when I closed my eyes. We spent 10 minutes and miraculously, my headache was cured. He asked if I was still tired - I replied, " about as tired as I usually am"
I think about that sometimes - "about as tired as I usually am" How do I stop being tired? Am I misnaming this feeling as "tired" I think I stop feeling this way for about 3 hours in the morning, or when I'm doing mathsy stuff - eng design that has well defined steps, sewing (sometimes), I haven't done comp programming for a while but that used to do it.
In some ways I think I like this feeling - I feel sort of big eyed and intellectual when I'm in its depths, and then I''ll write stuff like this that I'm sort of happy with.
Anyway, I should work out ways to avoid this tired feeling when I don't get anything done.
Tired
Date: 2003-11-18 03:50 am (UTC)