Avoidance and stuff
Sep. 29th, 2005 12:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mrsbrownI have things I put on my list at the beginning of this, my first week of freedom from full-time work.
There are some I just don't seem to be very interested in getting done. The weird one is my lack of ability to just get up and go to the paint shop to talk about concrete paint for my laundry.
Maybe I'm suffering from one of my parental imposed inhibition. My mum's not very enthusiastic about my laundry floor being painted - she thinks it's cold (but I think I also heard a little snobbishness in her voice when we discussed it) That'll slow me down.
The other parental inhibition is one I get when interacting with men (or the person I imagine to be a man in this case) and I get a bit worried they're going to respond to me like my father used to (I don't THINK he does it anymore). That I'll get laughed at and made to feel small, inexperienced and naive. I can usually spot it fairly early and I have enough experience, particularly in the construction industry, to know that I can just put on my engineer hat and be superior to almost anyone. It just slows me down with the starting part.
I also have to put together the local newsletter I'm in charge of. I'm just not keen on sitting at the computer for long enough to get it done. I should do it in small chunks, but the deadline is tomorrow, so I guess I'll do it this arvo. That's why you're getting this post in fact - just another delaying tactic.
There are some I just don't seem to be very interested in getting done. The weird one is my lack of ability to just get up and go to the paint shop to talk about concrete paint for my laundry.
Maybe I'm suffering from one of my parental imposed inhibition. My mum's not very enthusiastic about my laundry floor being painted - she thinks it's cold (but I think I also heard a little snobbishness in her voice when we discussed it) That'll slow me down.
The other parental inhibition is one I get when interacting with men (or the person I imagine to be a man in this case) and I get a bit worried they're going to respond to me like my father used to (I don't THINK he does it anymore). That I'll get laughed at and made to feel small, inexperienced and naive. I can usually spot it fairly early and I have enough experience, particularly in the construction industry, to know that I can just put on my engineer hat and be superior to almost anyone. It just slows me down with the starting part.
I also have to put together the local newsletter I'm in charge of. I'm just not keen on sitting at the computer for long enough to get it done. I should do it in small chunks, but the deadline is tomorrow, so I guess I'll do it this arvo. That's why you're getting this post in fact - just another delaying tactic.
