clarification

[mrsbrown]

The deal about Z's birth isn't really super traumatic for me - any more.

It's just that it's an old wound, that when I relive it gets me upset. Yesterday I thought about it like this: If I had had a serious car accident, it would not be strange if I avoided the place where the car accident happened. Even 11 years later, I would expect that my heart would beat faster when I went by.

I'm not a very self-disciplined person. Making myself work hard/consistantly at anything, particularly physical stuff, has always been my greatest challenge. Riding my bike up a hill fits in this category and doing it with the emotional distraction of the Z thing has been too hard - I think. So I stopped riding.

I haven't decided what I'm going to do about it.

Comments

Riding

[doushkasmum.livejournal.com]

Um, a thought. Riding is faster than walking. If you get to work in n minutes walking and this is OK for your start time. Find a route that takes n minutes to ride to work that doesn't pass the hospital. This gets you more exercise and avoids the nasty. (no help with resoving the nasty issue I agree, but I am not sure of the ultimate aim here)