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Eleven and a half years
Feb. 1st, 2009 07:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mrsbrownBinka's death went quite well. It was as peaceful as the vet assured us it would be. We were all there, although Sneetch didn't stay in the room while she died but came in later and MrPeacock is at Kapooka.
Just as the vet said all those months ago, my adolescent child told me that I was making the wrong decision and my smallest child just sort of hung around without making a huge fuss.
The vet's were very understanding; the appointment was after their normal clinic time- so there was noone else around, they administered the drug with a long canula so we could huddle around her while it took effect and they left us alone for as long as we needed to stay to say goodbye. We even took some photos in case MrPeacock wants to see them. I sent him a few of the ones we took yesterday before going to the Vet's, along with the news.
Yesterday afternoon I raced around preparing my children so I can feel comfy leaving them in their first week of school - we bought a bunch of stationary and stocked up on food. I should have packed more but I can't seem to get my head into it. And the whole time I've been stopping occasionally to look at the spots Binka would normally lie, or to think about the fact that we don't own a dog anymore. At one point I thought I heard her dog tags rattle as she came to check out what I was doing.
Then overnight we realised that we didn't have to leave the back door open, that we don't have to worry about the cat food anymore and that when heading to the toilet in the middle of the night we don't have to worry about where Binka is sleeping so we can carefully step over her. We obviously stepped over her a lot, she never flinched, no matter how close to her nose you put your foot.
I'm dreading coming home from NZ to a house without her.
Just as the vet said all those months ago, my adolescent child told me that I was making the wrong decision and my smallest child just sort of hung around without making a huge fuss.
The vet's were very understanding; the appointment was after their normal clinic time- so there was noone else around, they administered the drug with a long canula so we could huddle around her while it took effect and they left us alone for as long as we needed to stay to say goodbye. We even took some photos in case MrPeacock wants to see them. I sent him a few of the ones we took yesterday before going to the Vet's, along with the news.
Yesterday afternoon I raced around preparing my children so I can feel comfy leaving them in their first week of school - we bought a bunch of stationary and stocked up on food. I should have packed more but I can't seem to get my head into it. And the whole time I've been stopping occasionally to look at the spots Binka would normally lie, or to think about the fact that we don't own a dog anymore. At one point I thought I heard her dog tags rattle as she came to check out what I was doing.
Then overnight we realised that we didn't have to leave the back door open, that we don't have to worry about the cat food anymore and that when heading to the toilet in the middle of the night we don't have to worry about where Binka is sleeping so we can carefully step over her. We obviously stepped over her a lot, she never flinched, no matter how close to her nose you put your foot.
I'm dreading coming home from NZ to a house without her.
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Date: 2009-01-31 09:07 pm (UTC)Packing- don't envy you having to pack so soon after surveying. I am still working on unpacking from that. Have a fabulous time, do.
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Date: 2009-01-31 10:03 pm (UTC)Thinking of you all.
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Date: 2009-02-01 02:02 am (UTC)There will be a big sad Binka sized hole for a while. For lots of us, but more for you. All my sympathy.
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Date: 2009-02-01 02:14 am (UTC)It wasn't until there were major renovations at the ancestral home that I stopped expecting to see our dogs when I arrived.
This is going to be a very hard week for the kids.
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Date: 2009-02-01 03:00 am (UTC)Commiserations
Date: 2009-02-01 03:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-02-01 05:40 am (UTC)Condolences.
I wish you all strength.
Date: 2009-02-01 07:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-02-02 05:57 am (UTC)I must admit that I did get a little teary just now with that news.
Condolences to you all. She was such a sweet girl, and no doubt will be missed greatly.