MrsBrown's philosophy of life and stuff

I wouldn't be surprised if I've posted about this before - I've been blogging since 2003 and everytime I back up my journal I notice that the same themes come up, time and again.

Anyway, today I have to feel guilty.  I'm not going to my place of paid employment today (I can't say I'm not working).  Either I was going to feel guilty because I was at work but not paying attention, or I get to feel guilty about not being there.  Failing the guilt is not an option.

I've come to this decision after spending yesterday aternoon finalising the shopping list.  I sat down for "an hour after lunch" and finished as the AC went off at 5pm (building management obviously don't know how to adjust the timeclock for daylight savings).  Then I started thinking that I was going to have to take this afternoon off to do some things, and then realised that I was going to be in late because of some other things I have to do this morning, AND I'm meeting Villana for lunch to collect the bulk purchasing card, and I realised I'd be better off to be up front with my colleagues about what to expect.  Oh well, they got three two and a half days of work out of me they weren't going to get last week.  And I'll have a better time this way.

Now I can spend the time I need to avoid feeling guilty about Baroness stuff I need to do. And the cooking thing of course.

It's funny. When I was an adolescent my mum complained that I never seemed to feel guilty.  I don't think that's true. I just hide my emotions and then get headaches, coldsores, tummy upsets, insomnia and earache.

Oh yes, look!  Reverse documentation for my outfit tomorrow!

Tomorrow I will:

sleep in a bit
carve some plaster in preparation for carving soapstone for my pewter project (tonight I will make plaster cake for carving)
go shopping for a really speccy gold fabric and some suitable red for Midwinter banners
sort out the clothes that don't fit Rose
motivate mr_bassman into working on the tent
Take Rose to kinder
Do some work on the Midwinter menu and website


By the way, I have the strangest headache. It's like the muscles in my upper back just decided to cramp, giving me a sleepy headache.

Also, I managed to line up the ducks and today I rode my bike to work and home again.

so now I'm posting.

The virtuous me would be making another "hood of warmth" baronial token and some lunch for at the Archery Day today, before heading off to the school to do the final pickup of stuff and cleanup.

but blah!

My mind's running too fast for me to sleep, but I'm too tired to be very virtuous. Rose is still asleep and my mind is whirring over when to get her up, so she's fed and dressed before we go to the school to clean. That, unfortunately, is a non-negotiable.

Bugger, that only took 2 min. Maybe I'll sew, and then hope that Rose is still asleep at 9.45am, when I'll ask MsNotaGoth to keep her ear out for the Rose, who'll wake up as I walk out the door and fuck mess up all my plans. And food? I think I might have to make a formal, "you're feeding the B and B this bash" roster. And today? we'll make sure we eat beforehand, or something.

Blah. Did I mention Blah?

Hey! I should publish the instructions for making a hood. Then, when people are feeling helpful, they could make hoods and I wouldn't have to do this rush job on a Sunday morning.

BTW I had a fabbo time last night. I'm still amazed that there were at least 25 people dancing all the way to the last dance. Earlier, there almost wasn't enough room for the dancers in the hall! The fires worked brilliantly, but I should have lit organised to have lit the third brazier. It was funny watching the extra groups of people, determined to have their own conversation circle, without a fire. Although it didn't get below 10 degrees last night - positively balmy!

And I've already been asked if we'll have another ball next year. It's certainly an easy event to run/organise. So maybe I should encourage someone to run one as their first event.